t f v r


today marks 5 years since i lost my twin bro…the wound is no less raw, losing a immediate family member is tough by any stretch, a sibling even more so, a twin, very few can really relate to this, i shared the womb with my bro. no I’m not calling out for attention, just typing through my feeling on it, i miss my bro daily, many days more than others. when he passed, i was happy with my relationship with him, i have no regrets about the friends we were and the men we were becoming and the man i have become to this point. i just wish he coulda been my best man at my wedding, been at the hospital with me when i have my first child, and vice versa, shit its tough every single fucking day. i have no issue with being emotional when it comes to something or someone i care about, and today has been and will be an emotional day for me, i haven’t slept and probably won’t its not something i enjoy but its something that has become a tradition of sorts, 5 years ago, today, in this hour, my brother left this earth and i felt the exact moment when he departed, that connection was started in the womb and ended on this day on a construction site, my brother was working hard and doing a job that he was good at and enjoyed the spoils of. he was an amazing dude, an asshole, a friend, MY brother, my twin. I miss that dude so fucking much……

anyone who reads this, thanks for taking a moment and reading my ramblings, I’m dealing and am thankful for every person who has made strides to lighten my load, i know i can’t go it alone by design, i was put on this earth as a set. 

I hope your day is amazing if you are reading this or not…i won’t be active on anything social today …